Thoughts by Hannah Michelle

The world has lots of ways of telling me I'm not enough.   Within my family, I can't solve all of the problems.  Sometimes, I cause them.  I'm not enough. At work, I'm not enough. I can't get all I want to get done in my part-time hours.  I can't get "enough" kids to come.  I can't get all of my students to understand that God loves them and that should somehow change their life.  I'm not enough. At school, I'm not enough.  This class I'm taking this summer somehow is both not challenging at all, and also really frustrating and tough. I don't understand it and it's very easy.  It might break my 4.0.  I'm not enough. With friends, I'm never enough. The few friends I make always have plenty of other friends, and I'm not enough.  With my peers, I'm not enough.  I'm not funny enough, or I don't drink enough (at all), or I just don't fit in enough.  I'm not enough.

Gettin' Introspective The beach. What a great place to take a few days to renew your spirit.   This has been a crazy week.  On Monday, I went in for my ENT appointment and was also given a hearing test, where I found out I have some permanent hearing loss in my right ear.  Right now, I've not been told what caused this hearing loss, or if I'm going to lose more of my hearing.  I have to have an MRI done, and that's happening this Monday. I'm not really sure when I will get any answers, so this is something that is weighing on my heart a bit.  What will my life look like if I completely lose my hearing? I'm not really sure.  So, I'm learning ASL so I can be as ahead as possible if this happens.  (Also, John Mulaney and Ed Sheeran, if you want to just release everything possible that I can listen to in case I end up going deaf, I'd appreciate that.)  So, anyway, I basically found out that I have permanent hearing loss in my ear, went to